So today I googled "hate of repetition"— I've always been the type of person who can't cope with the same things happening over and over. Repeating tasks just becomes so intimidating to the point I'd do anything humanly possible to stop them, or life becomes unbearable.
I don't want this happening again now that I have something to do.
The only answer I found that made any sense is depression as a root cause.
Yes, I know that the internet is not a healthy source of information on this matter, which is why I decided to stop the search.
I would however like to share the search result that brought me to this conclusion by Haley Quinn:
It only shares people's experiences with depression and how they've reacted. It somehow put my mind to ease (about starting to hate my routine).
Now here's the thing— I'm not particularly fond of writing about this topic. In fact, I'm embarrassed, but I'll say this: If you associate with the 22 points mentioned in Haley's post, it's time to reflect. Find the reason behind your depression, and if you can't, get help instead of hating the person you've become. As Haley said so delicately:
The objective of this exercise is simple— draw the lines of the frames and cubes, then copy the original ones and paste them on top of yours. Simply seeing the differences in the angles and lengths between your cubes and the original cubes improves your brain's ability to see and compare. I learned this exercise from the Imaginism Workshop as well.
I actually painted 4 renders today, but I forgot to save the first one.
There is still so much room for improvement. I'll get there as I keep at it.
I don't want this happening again now that I have something to do.
The only answer I found that made any sense is depression as a root cause.
Yes, I know that the internet is not a healthy source of information on this matter, which is why I decided to stop the search.
I would however like to share the search result that brought me to this conclusion by Haley Quinn:
22 Things From My Everyday Routine That 'Go Out the Window' When I'm Depressed
It only shares people's experiences with depression and how they've reacted. It somehow put my mind to ease (about starting to hate my routine).
Now here's the thing— I'm not particularly fond of writing about this topic. In fact, I'm embarrassed, but I'll say this: If you associate with the 22 points mentioned in Haley's post, it's time to reflect. Find the reason behind your depression, and if you can't, get help instead of hating the person you've become. As Haley said so delicately:
If depression affects your day-to-day schedule like this, you don’t have to feel ashamed or alone.And that's that. We can stop talking about this now.
Try to be kind to yourself in these moments because you are doing the best you can.
Today's Horrible Exercises
I really needed more practice before moving on to new workshop notes. My ability to compare lengths, values and angles is severely compromised! I even went back to the very very very basic exercise of all basics, the cubing.
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| I wasn't THAT far off, was I? D: |
The objective of this exercise is simple— draw the lines of the frames and cubes, then copy the original ones and paste them on top of yours. Simply seeing the differences in the angles and lengths between your cubes and the original cubes improves your brain's ability to see and compare. I learned this exercise from the Imaginism Workshop as well.
(If you're curious about this exercise, drop me a note or a comment and I'll gladly share the file with you.)
On a more positive note though— A slight improvement with the cube and sphere rendering exercises (hurray).
I actually painted 4 renders today, but I forgot to save the first one.
There is still so much room for improvement. I'll get there as I keep at it.
Today's Sense-of-Achievement To-Do List was:
- Paint 3 basic-shape exercises. (11:00 - 13:00)
- 1 cube (10 min) - I ended up painting another extra cube!
- 2 spheres (1 hour)
- Blogging (10:00 - 16:00)
- Google the "boredom" topic (15 min)
- Results Skimmage (20 min)
- Why boredom is a problem (20 min)
- In-depth reading through results (40 min)
- About the solutions I picked (40 min)
- Did this help? (15 min)
- Conclusion (15 min)
- Proofreading & editing (20 min)
- Publish
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